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Jul. 19th, 2004

azurelunatic: Vivid pink Alaskan wild rose. (Default)
I utterly freaked out on the phone this afternoon to Darkside, and I'm finally realizing why.

When I met Jez back in the day, we were twins. Not absolutely alike, but enough similar so that we could have passed for sisters, or different iterations of the same woman.

I used to almost have a mother-in-law. I despised the woman then, and I pity her now. From what my ex-fiance said, she was once a person very much like me. She isn't, anymore. I look at my former almost-mother-in-law, and I don't see her. I see a woman-shaped shell, a person who defines herself through those around her.

When I saw Jez again, I saw the beginnings of her turning into my former almost-mother-in-law. That scares me beyond belief.
azurelunatic: Oblong coin with a beaded border. Image of building, inscription 'IEEE 20 cents'. (ieee coin)
Woke up at 0630 to the alarm clock.
Wound up napping for several iterations of the snooze cycle.
Got dressed around 0700.
Crashed again 0714.
Zoomed out to work at 0738.
Got to work at least somewhat on time.

Found that there was no official lead monitor for Sunday I (the morning shift), and furthermore, that all four of us monitoring today were wearing black shirts, and the other three were wearing blue jeans (I was wearing a black skirt). Found that the priority sheet (the list of who's had recent problems, and who's new) was lost, or at least unfound. Someone found a marked-up one in the recycle, and applied whiteout and the copy machine.

Break always feels early on Sundays. I had lunch with [livejournal.com profile] othercat and the pseudo-lead monitor. The pseudo-lead monitor for today was one of the cute girls, the one whose voice must be in one of the holes in my hearing, so I always have to ask her to repeat things. She's going to Anchorage for a month to see a friend. Mr. Bitter was on hand, and when she mentioned Anchorage, he got animated and shared a fish story with us -- sea lion, barracuda, and much cuteness. I guess that's one thing he is good for: fish stories. It was really a nice story.

[livejournal.com profile] othercat and I had much cackling over lunch. The pseudo-lead monitor was sort of left in the dust, because there's a certain way that people who have known each other for a while and who've read each other's LJs and been in the same fandoms can communicate, and it baffles people who don't know the shorthands.

I think I got about 20 monitor reports done in the 5.25 hours I was working. Not sure. That's around 4 an hour, and the top spiffing speed they want us at is 5 an hour. I'm getting there. It's sure as Eris better than the 3 an hour I pulled my first day. I'm learning how to prepare my sheets while I'm monitoring the one so that I can just pull up the next one and be good to go.

Cleanup was a little hairy. [livejournal.com profile] othercat was going to wait for me, but cleanup always is long and evil. The research peons were released at 1400. I dragged out after cleanup at 1445.

Not only do you have to clean up from the previous shift on Sunday I, you also have to set up for the next shift. Cleanup was not so bad. Setting up for the next shift was a little rough. I didn't know half what to do, but the two experienced monitors helped us...

Ran into Motley on the way out. She had Dew caps. Ran into [livejournal.com profile] trystan_laryssa, Loren, and [livejournal.com profile] dustraven on the way out too.

Hugs were exchanged, and I let them know that the Rules Lawyer Monitor and I hadn't clashed, actually. We haven't seen too much of each other, and also, there's evidently quite a bit of power difference between a research peon and a monitor. As a research peon, a monitor has quite a bit of power over one. As the newest monitor, the Rules Lawyer Monitor is only one of the senior people in the department, furthermore, one who is taken with a grain of salt and occasionally mocked behind her back.

It doesn't hurt that I'm good at subtly kissing up without looking like I'm kissing up. Not kissing up, per se, I suppose, but being quiet and respectful and eager to learn and slightly puppyish though better at staying out of the way. (People who know my human side are very, very wary of that side of me.) Roll over, present throat? It's pack behaviour, whatever it is, and alphas respond well to it. I'm a leadership switch, a beta, and can take leadership if I feel I really must, or accept it if there's someone better. In some of my personal life, I simulate alpha a lot better.

Came home. Collapsed. Called Darkside. Roommates were still out. Spent subjective minutes/years on the phone with Darkside (objectively, about an hour), and talked about politics and friendship, golf, computers, divorce, and the like. Hard drive, soft drive, floppy drive. Shooting buckets of golf balls. Me worrying madly. So many things left to tell him... foot in mouth and shoving harder, that's me talking about Jez...

Roommates came home. Everyone hungry. Headed to new Chinese buffet resteraunt to test. Verdict: good. Secondary verdict (mine): Panda Gourmet on the corner where we get our orange chicken is still better, and I think we want to support them a little more.

Lunatic cleans room more: puts out old VCR, and a small box of junk to recycle.

Lunatic crashes.
azurelunatic: Vivid pink Alaskan wild rose. (Default)
I still lust after his bookshelves. They're tall, dark wood, with shelves that are at least a foot deep. They're probably heavy as hell. They have gaming books and assorted hardbacks and random miniatures, IIRC, in front of the books.

I love him, and I really love his bookshelves.
azurelunatic: Vivid pink Alaskan wild rose. (Default)
Since I got up early, I'm actually bothering to get spiffed up for work a bit. This involves hair gel, lipstick, and glitter. If I'm feeling not rushed for time, I may even polish the nails.

People who've seen me face to face over the past few years can testify as to how scary this is. Well, people other than Darkside, since the last few times we've seen each other, I've been actually dressed up. Though he's seen me in the morning often enough so he's more used to that than he is to spiffy!Lunatic.
azurelunatic: Vivid pink Alaskan wild rose. (Default)
Went to work. Monitored. Only had one little bit of trouble -- some silly character accepting a blanket answer on MVM. Silly character.

Saw [livejournal.com profile] othercat walking back from work while I was walking to work. She was on the sidewalk in the hot evil sun, and I was hiding from the hot evil sun with the strip mall.

Went on break late. Silly creatures. My efficiency went up again, 4.2 monitor reports an hour vs. yesterday's four-or-under. One of these days I'll be up to 5 an hour like we're supposed to get.

I really like wiping tapes. I've gotten better at wiping both sides in a smooth move. I like sorting papers too. And writing down log time and refusal rates on monitor reports is the sort of clerical work that I excel at.

Who knows. Maybe I've found something I'm good at that I like. Do monitors get paid more than peons?

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